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The Key That Unlocked My Understanding!

4/8/2016

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I don't know WHY it has taken me so long to finally write about this!?

First, I will start by declaring this:

 May all I state herein fall on deaf ears if it NOT be inspired by the very heart of God and His Holy Spirit.  May all that IS truth and of holy wisdom and insight, straight from the heart of God, take root in the hearts of those seeking truth, deeper relationship with our Creator, and guidance in how to be a powerful son/ daughter in this world!



Three years ago I finally woke from a deep sleep.  For as long as I can remember I not only saw myself as the target of the enemy's prime choice of torment, but I had even chosen to believe I deserved it. Anything anyone did or said to me that was hurtful or hateful, I believed that I must have deserved it.  I even began verbally repeating the lies to myself in the mirror.  At the time I believed them to be truths. Not just as a child, but well into adulthood.  I received everything bad as justified punishment for things unknown, at first.  However, I was sure to be the first to verbally shame myself as soon as I knowingly did things wrong.  Outwardly, I tried to be joyful and whimsical, as I naturally was.  Eventually, though, My inward decay and utter pain began to completely change my outward appearance.  My eyes became empty and glossed over.  My smile became forced. My body was becoming a lifeless shell.  I had so many walls built up and forces of defense set up all around me.  I was enslaved by my own free will!   

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Now, this may or may not sound believable to you... I absolutely loved and trusted God from an early age!  I did believe that, one day, He will rescue me from this.  That ALL of this torment was going to be used for good.  I really remember thinking that at age 10! I knew verses that revealed His promises and I never wavered in faith. Truly!

What I DIDN'T know was this...

I didn't know I had a choice to NOT receive the lies!  I didn't know the true power of MY words!  I didn't know my true, unique value!  I knew what the bible said, yes.  I just didn't know the true power behind the scriptures.  I guess I got in the habit of looking at it more like a history book with powerful stories that had happened and encouraging words.  I didn't know my authority I had over the enemy.  I didn't know that I could claim things, good things, for myself!  I didn't have the slightest concept of life and death being in the power of my tongue! 

This lack of understanding was not due to a lack of teaching from my parents and pastors.  I had allowed the enemy to cloud my vision from an early age, which made it difficult for me to comprehend simple truths.

Oh! How good God is!  He has unlocked truths within me and flooded me with a deep knowledge and understanding!  I believe people have different "missing links", so to speak.  For me it was the understanding of Quantum Physics!  Everything is energy!
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This is how God has caused everything bad in my life to turn around for my good!
As I was going through my divorce, I was in search of a job.  I had been a stay-at-home mom for 8 1/2 years!  My highest level of education would be categorized as " Some College", but it was on the low end of "Some" considering I became pregnant with my first child my senior year of High School. And married shortly out of High School. 
I had always said that I wouldn't get a job I didn't love.  That was even more important to me than what it paid.  I believed that if I loved my job I'd do it well.  And I knew that that would please God and He is my ultimate provider!  At first I decided to use my God-given talents to earn what I could until I found a stable job.  I began selling baked goods at a coffee shop!  I was asked to write and direct skits at my church for VBS! No, that wasn't a paying job, of course!  But it was a blessing to have my gifts acknowledged and drawn out of me!  Through that experience I came to know my current boss and dearly trusted friend!  He worked at a health and wellness clinic where his dad was the Doctor.  I asked if they were hiring and he said that they are praying for the right person to come.  Long story short, (well, of this particular story) I am that person!  I am drawing near to my 3 year anniversary of employment at our clinic!  I have gained so much knowledge and confidence in these past few years that gives my entire past so much purpose!
Our main source of healing at our clinic is ENERGY!  The true understanding of this key factor in life is simultaneously mind blowing and yet so simple!!   
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Everything is truly energy!  The very breath you breathe in and out holds frequency!  Each individual cell in your body has a specific frequency!  Your thoughts, your words, all of you! The paint you paint your baby's walls with has a specific energy to it that will either provide a happy, gloomy, comforting, or over stimulating energy within that room.  To which that child will react according to it's own energy. 
Is that in itself not fascinating?!  I get to test energy for a living!  My specific job is QRA ( Quantum Reflex Analysis )
The Doctor sends the patients to me to have herbal supplements tested and specific dosages according to the individuals needs.  Because, let's be honest here, nobody has the same body chemistry.  Therefore, the general dosages on the bottles will not provide optimal benefits!
How do I test?  I first mentally " stress tap" individual systems of the body, for example " Digestion".  With my hands, thumbs pointing towards each other, on the sitting patient's knees, I slightly bring the knees together as I make my statements to the body. I will either make a True or False statement.  The way the body responds is by a Reflex Response that takes place in the hip!  I will know if my statement, or the specific supplement in the patient's bio field, " stresses " the body if my thumbs do not line up to one another evenly.  The leg will literally pull up slightly! I do not control or manipulate this.  In fact, I cannot. I can only word things differently. I even do surrogate testing and test someone in a different State! I have done this successfully quite a few times.  I simply just need to know a few things about the person's health/situation.  I know, it may seem hard to comprehend.  But think about it like this...  If we can intercede for people all over the world, without even knowing them, and hear changes happening according to our prayers, why wouldn't this be possible? Our prayers are energy!  This testing, by the way, goes beyond testing nutrition.  We can, and do, test emotional health with this same technique.  And this is only one of several techniques!  I self-test darn near everything with a simple flick of the fingers.  And, what's taking it even a step farther is testing for multiple energy sources, seen and unseen!  Even spiritually speaking.  People, this is NOT a tool created by the enemy!  He is not a creator, only a contortionist of sorts.  Yes, this knowledge can be used for destruction.  Just as our words can.  Just as our physical actions can.  Just as music can.  Just as religion can.  And on and on indefinitely! 
Don't be quick to shut this out... This knowledge is a vital key to fully walking in your God-given authority, destiny, and abundant life!  He is the beginning and end!  All scripture is God-breathed!  He SPOKE the world, the UNIVERSE, into existence!  Please, don't believe the lies about super spirituality being New Age and witchcraft.  God began it all!  And He is good, ONLY GOOD!  Satan was kicked out because he wanted to be greater than his Creator!  He is a contortionist of truth! He is a master manipulator!  He is the father of lies!  Don't let him prevent you from using the power that is  unattainable to him! 
Everything Jesus did when He walked this earth until He ascended into heaven, we will do also!  And even MORE!  I'm not saying we are gods, just to be clear.  I don't lean on that side of a common belief system.  I'm simply stating the fact that we are invited to partner with our Creator in walking in our true identity, all he has meant for us!

I am so moved with gratitude that He has brought me to where I am now, in every aspect!  I mean, I think the greatest understanding I now have is that I can choose to walk in the Kingdom of heaven right here on earth right now!  And I can use everything that is in the Kingdom of Heaven to carry out His will on this earth!  I can refuse to receive the lies!  I can finally comprehend how SPEAKING TRUTH CANCELS OUT THE LIES!  I understand how nearly every disease process is caused by stress.  whether it be generational or self inflicted!  I understand that by me rejecting my true identity in Christ for decades has resulted in becoming Auto Immune!  And I understand that EVERY disease process can be reversed by ENERGY!  No man made energy, in pill form or equipment can match our God-given energy!

I could go on and on for an eternity because there is truly no end to this!
This is what excites me!  This is how I can FINALLY comprehend the Word of God and seek more and more wisdom to KNOW Him more intimately!
The choices I face each day are not determined by each moment.  Rather, by whether I am going to walk in the Kingdom of Heaven, or in the covering of the lies of the enemy.  We tend to over complicate and break down each moment of our day as though there is a schedule to which we switch tasks.  No.  Live your lives in Kingdom mindset!  His timing is perfect! And if we seek His will, He will direct our paths! And do everything as unto the Lord!  The way we do our jobs. Raise our children.  Treat our relationships.  Take care of our homes.  Take care of our cities.  Take care of people we don't know.  The effort we put into our homework and our bodies.  The way we cook our meals.  The quality of food we feed people. EVERYTHING!  You CAN have it all, because, as a child of the Most High, you already have it at all! 
Truly, live KNOWING that!  Your bank account may look as though you can only afford to buy yourself and your family cheap, unhealthy food.  But, I promise you, if you begin shopping with the mindset that unhealthy food is NOT an option for your family, your bodies will not be left wanting!  I can promise this because He gives only good gifts!  And it is an action of you trusting Him.  Once you develop this mindset, you will begin to cut out a lot of things that may have been false priority. 

Yes, there will be days when your old mindset tries to take up residence again.  Don't beat yourself up over it.  It's NEVER TOO LATE to change to your Kingdom Mindset!  After all, you have become satan's worst nightmare! You know better now!

Be strong. Be courageous. Be you!

Much Love,
~ Rachel Gray  
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The Only Way to Overcome Fear is to Scale the Mountain!

2/15/2016

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Do you find that you become anxious or fearful when you KNOW you are about to take a step in the right direction?

Is it adrenaline? Is it fear? Is it....intuition?

This topic of conversation has been highlighted to me since the beginning of the new year! Fear keeps creeping in as I actively walk in a new season I undoubtedly know God is calling me into. However, I have noticed that many close to me are also experiencing the physical manifestation of fear - anxiety.  So, I have been inspired to use this topic, which the enemy has actively been using to prevent me from moving forward, to help walk us out of that place we find ourselves "Stuck" in. Obviously, with the help of Holy Spirit!

You may have noticed I have not been so active on here since we came into the year 2016. (I hope you've noticed !) I ended last year on a very high note! I had just had my first Silent Auction where I successfully auctioned off my original art pieces in efforts to raise money for our first Family Missions Trip! Which, by the way, has helped me purchase our passports and tickets to Switzerland!! Praise the Lord!! That was only the beginning of this "Inspired Art" adventure!  What I thought may only provide a means to raise money for missions trips is indeed proving to be in high demand! Hmmm, not sure if that sounds right.  Basically, what I am learning is that God is using this art to inspire His children in a very intimate way, and He has no plans of stopping this movement through me!  I have been asked, by people I have come to know , to do private painting sessions!  What does that look like? You may be wondering.  It's simple, really!  I set up my station and let my music play in the background while you simply read a book or relax.  I am constantly in prayer during my painting.  I don't need to know anything from you in order to paint something specific for you! I ask the Lord to express His Love for you in a deep way.  I am just allowing Him to use me.  Sometimes I won't even have an interpretation for you... because you will just know when you see it! Besides, the same picture will undoubtedly speak something different to anyone else.  But this is a special moment and I would LOVE to see some testimonials in the comments below from anyone who has ,or will, receive one of these paintings! ;)

No, I have not forgotten the topic of this post. Yes, it is necessary for you to understand this little backstory of mine.

God, my Papa Love, has given me clear direction of my call in this life!  He has promised me some BIG things and is bringing them to pass! I mean, I still cannot believe we are going to Switzerland in just a few short months!  He has given me BIG dreams! And He has even been speaking some bold words into my life. Like, very specific things! Concerning Love and marriage and even where I'm going to live! This is " deep territory" He is walking me into.  And, I admit, from the outside I look like a crazy lady sometimes.  I gotta stop caring how I think other people see me as because that's exactly what will cause me to cower into a ball of insecurities and not move forward in His promises!  And THAT is my introduction to addressing FEAR!

I would be foolish to underestimate the craftiness of my enemy!  I am thankful that I have grown a lot in my understanding of my God-given authority I am to walk in!  Otherwise, I would continue to be ruled by the debilitating fear that constantly shoots up like a huge mountain as I walk the straight and narrow! The thing about those mountains on a straight and narrow path is that you naturally cannot see beyond them! You are aware of how far you've walked and all you have already been able to overcome.  Then you are faced with a decision... do you set up camp and just retrace your past steps and remain in what you have come to "know", and allow that mountain to keep you from going beyond?  Or, do you refuse to remain in what you are meant to walk out of and scale that mountain?

My mountain is usually formed by the fear of expectation and even success!  Which really forms an even bigger mountain of responsibility and reliability!  I'm just gonna name it because my enemy already knows my fears and I believe that by being transparent about this I will gain strength! As will you! As I see the good that is produced by my obedience to His leading and my public vulnerability, I begin to see the magnitude of the influence He is allowing me to have on a large scale! And it is daunting!  I mean, really, if I mess up in a big way, suddenly the world will know it and my entire reputation can be destroyed!! Suddenly my circle became bigger! By no means am I putting myself on a "celebrity" status pedestal!  The reality of putting myself out there publicly is just really scary to think about, you know?  People I don't even personally know suddenly really know me!  And some of the people I do know and hold in high esteem don't even have a clue that I exist!  Which, by the way, is not healthy, I know.  What I really need to get over is needing the approval of man!  And I know this!  I am just laying before you the real fears and thoughts I face on a daily basis that are constantly surfacing in efforts to get me to stop sharing! And let me tell you about this fear of success I have!  I didn't even realize that would be a fear until it was actually put into words!  Doesn't everyone want to be successful?? Well, ya, of course!  But to remain successful is a big deal!  All these things, which have not even become tangible yet, stir a great ,breath-taking anxiety within my belly!  But you know what?  All these what ifs are really smoke and mirrors!

Want to know how to combat this tool of your enemy? Do you want to know how to use it against him, for your gain? Here's how...

... Do it anyway! It will not go away as you continue to walk forward.  But you can experience peace during those times.  God has not given us a spirit of fear.  So, we know it's not from Him, which means it's from the enemy.  And why would he try to stop us in our tracks with fear?  Because, unlike us, he does see what's on the other side of that mountain!  He does not want us to go out into all the world and make disciples! He doesn't want us to know our true value!  He doesn't want us to know that we, in Christ, are a force to be reckoned with!  What is his main goal?  To steal kill and destroy US! And why did Jesus come? To give us life more abundantly! Again, fear will pop up constantly, but as you gain more momentum and seek first the Kingdom, you will rise up on wings like eagles and gain new strength and He will provide all that you need and beyond! Yes, I combined a few different paraphrased verses, but it's all true!! The true key is to acknowledge Him in all your ways and He will direct your path! And cast all your cares upon Him for He cares for you!  Do you want peace of mind? Give Him your time and attention.

So, next time I have the privilege of painting in front of the church during worship service, I will enter into His presence and climb that mountain in anticipation! 
If what you do in life is pleasing and acceptable to the Lord, yet causes an anxiety within you, you must bring it before Papa Love and talk it out with Him. Ask for understanding and wisdom.  You will gain it!  Never get too busy with even the good to set aside time with your Papa! He's the only one who can give you the fulfillment you seek.  And, if you are not careful to keep Him first, the good works He once produced through you can become dead and even destructive.  I pray I never boast in anything I do but that I forever sing His praises and boast in His everlasting Glory!

Aahhhhh.... that was refreshing!

Be inspired to keep going!  And let God go as big as He wants with you!

Much Love!
~ Rach


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Time to Toss that Broken Record!

10/14/2015

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Hello, my readers...
This one's gonna hurt a bit! For sure me.. possibly you.  But, what is it they say in recovery groups? Oh yes," The first step is to admit you have a problem." That's it, right? I mean, it's what I've heard, though I've never actually been to a recovery group.
Regardless, I know it's true. You can't fix something you don't believe is broken. So, here I am, acknowledging that something is broken. Because I am desperate for a fixing!

The above broken record, to me, is my love life.  I'm just going to be completely transparent , because I don't know how do sugarcoat things.

I'm nearing the big 30 soon! I couldn't be more thrilled about it, truly! A new decade... a fresh season... and I am determined to shake off old mindsets, bad habits, and the chains that have held me down my entire life that I have come accustomed to holding on to with a death grip!

It started when I was just a little girl. I was about 5. I was so innocent and naïve . Like any 5 year old is! I knew how to get attention and get my way. Give a little pout and instant watery eyes... or, the opposite, even! Shrug my shoulders and give an eye-wincing, cheese smile! It worked! Come to think of it... as I'm writing these descriptions down, I believe I still do them. Ha! I guess, some things never change! ;) I was your typical bratty, manipulative, baby of the family.

Then things changed. My innocence was taken from me... little by little. Shame crept in. Fear overwhelmed me. Great insecurity began to shape me as I grew older. I no longer knew how to say, " I love you." to anyone. Not even my parents. That little girl that, every night before bed, would say, " I love you! Jesus loves you!" to her parents, was gone.  Not by their doing.  And not by growing out of phases, either. Something was seriously wrong.

I saw myself different. Unrecognizable. Unidentified. My world, as I once knew it, blissfully care-free, burst as easily and quickly as a soap bubble.  And nobody even knew. If innocence could be taken in increments, mine was taken three more times thereafter, that I can remember.  The last time was when I was about 9 years old, by my best friend's uncle.  Anything that happened along those lines as I became a young adult, I have taken responsibility for.  However, it is surely because my self-worth was shattered as a child and I had taken on the identity man has walked me in. I remember growing up, still pre teen, as I would get ready, I cared more about my appearance.  What would people think when they see me in this? Would girls get jealous? Would guys think I am pretty? Would I be prettier than all the other girls? ( Even though I, myself, didn't see myself as pretty ). I know, this sounds so awful! So self-absorbed! But, the honest truth is this... I believed it was the ONLY value I had to offer a boy/man. I had no other identity! I craved attention and acceptance! The only way I would receive it was by way of flattery.  Any other way didn't feel honest.

Now, here's the kicker! This was all my mind and my flesh.  Which, everyone knows, is not all we are made of... right?! You do know that, right??  My spirit... is what kept fighting for survival!  I have lived a life consumed by fear and suicidal depression! It didn't begin to seep through the cracks of my brokenness until my late teen years, but it was very present well before my teen years!  Through all of it, I could never give up hope! I just knew that there was a reason for it all.  I knew, somehow, God would use all of this heartache for good.  I don't recall ever blaming Him for any of what I'd gone through. Perhaps it was because I was too busy blaming myself.  Or, it was simply because I trusted Him.  I knew He loved me.  I didn't know why, or how it was even possible.  I was sure I was a mistake and utter embarrassment of a creation!  In reality, it was only how I saw myself.  I've tried manipulating God by way of self-pity, pouty lips and watery eyes.  That didn't work.  Like any good parent who knows the schemes of their children, this was not new to Him.  He didn't comfort me in ways I demanded of Him. He grew me, though. Each day I survived because of the truth I had hidden deep within me.  It was a choice I had to make everyday, whether or not to see the blessings He had already put in my life. My family.  A rare, strong, God-fearing unit. There was a solid foundation there! And a solid foundation can withstand any storm!

So, here I am, a survivor, a fighter, and warrior that will NOT back down- EVER! And I'm writing about the very mindset that tried killing me! I hold on to the promise that I am an overcomer, and I WILL overcome this, FINALLY!

I'm tired of these games satan has played with me all these years! No, he is not going to creep into this new decade of my life! I refuse to allow him any space! I have found my identity in Christ! And that devil is shakin' in his boots, ready to crap himself! ( Sorry for that image....not that I should be ).  he should be, too! Because I'm about to step full force into who I really am!  And I am making sure to prep my children to do the same!  Do you think he realizes that the crap he's tried pulling on me has actually made me more dangerous to his wicked plot? Whoa! he better watch out! By the way, when I refer to that scumbag, I'm not making grammatical errors. I'm intentionally keeping him lowercase. he can't identify with us even in grammar!  We, children of the Most High, who are heirs with Christ, are way above him!  Don't allow him to make you think that you should fear him!  Not when you know who your Daddy is ;) Therefore, know who YOU are!  What's he gonna do to me?  More of the same old stuff, which only makes me stronger, more powerful against him?!  Because, it's where I am weak that His (God) power is made perfect! ( 2 Corinthians 12:9 )

I will no longer be reeled in by the womanizing men I have previously found the measure of my value in!  I will learn to receive the Love of God, fully, before any man!  And, when I have done so, I will then receive that man He has prepared me for, and him for me!  No more settling as if I have slim pickin's! I've got the whole World of possibility! I am finally at a place in my life where not just any man will do. In fact, right now, no man will do!

Believe me, I know that posting this on the web is challenging the forces of darkness.  It's only because of my confidence in Christ that I am fearlessly doing so!  So, if you fear for me, pray for me! If you don't fear for me, pray for me! Ha! Everyday I battle my mind, my flesh. Your prayers, to our heavenly Father, are never unappreciated, nor underestimated!  I will forever boast in the Lord!! I'm no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God!

In conclusion, I must correct my previous statement. My love life is NOT the broken record! The schemes of the devil are the broken record! Only able to play on repeat our past unfortunate events, words, actions. I'm finally tossing that old record in the trash! Instead, I'm ready to make a fresh soundtrack to the rest of my life! And I strongly encourage you to do the same!

Much Love!
~ Rach




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Time is running out!

9/16/2015

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Ok believers,  I am speaking to you right now.  Do you notice what is happening outside of your box?  Do you realize that we are in a day that is literally running out of time?! 

Now is the time to shout from the mountain tops to tell everyone about Jesus Christ, the one true messiah! It is time to get our heads out of the sand and go out into this world to show God's love, that many more may turn to Him!  It's almost as though we read about the end times as though it's merely a story which requires no action on our part!  You do realize, don't you, that we are the vessels in which prophesy will be carried out through?! 

Please, forgive me if I have put you on the defense.  I am guilty of the same do to my own selfishness and routines.  I am writing with such urgency in hopes of a spiritual awakening stirring within those who have become stale in their walk with the Lord!  Time is slipping through our fingers at a rate more speedily than before, it seems! 

I praise God, truly, for all who have stepped up to be used, moved, and sent by God out into the world!! I praise Him, daily, for awakening my soul and walking me fully into His truth and glory!  We are not to fear the times we are in.  I am not fearful for myself.  I am not fearful for my children, even!  However, I am fearful for some of my loved ones and for the multitude who so deceivingly believe that being a good person is all that matters.  I ache and long for their salvation!

Now is the time for you to recognize that the supernatural realm is, indeed, more real than the reality we have known!  Yes, read the Word of God to your children daily!  Make them aware through God's Word so they will not be consumed with fear and easily deceived!  You are called to change the world!  I don't care to entertain the excuses as to why we aren't ready to, or why we are unable to!  Know this! What little effort you make to further the Kingdom of Heaven , is much progress in the Kingdom of Heaven!  In other words, do not underestimate the power of planting a seed, for see what it becomes?! You are part of the body of Christ! Therefore, your participation is necessary and crucial!  Don't handicap the body by your lack of effort or chosen ignorance! 

Be prepared!  For what reason do we attain wisdom and insight and grow knowledgeable in the unravelling of this world, if not to prepare for what is to come??  Do you see how the world, through our entertainment industry, has manipulated us into making fun of conspiracy theorists and doomsday prepping as though it is an over the top, blown out of proportion way of thinking?!  Is it not better to over prepare than to be underprepared?  Should we not have escape plans and gathering points mapped out for our loved ones?  For our church? Are we not stronger together rather than scattered?  Is it not wise to prepare storehouses with food and water for when it becomes no longer available to us?  Is it really shameful to strategically prepare for what we KNOW is bound to happen?

Also, another thing, if I may add... it's time to step out against the corruption of this world instead of taking part in being entertained by the sin that soaks our minds by way of music, movies, and lifestyles!  If we can have a spiritual encounter with Jesus by way of worship music, and be moved and encouraged by the movies that preach the Gospel, and become deeply inspired by the upright.... then what is the parallel that influences us??  It would be pure foolishness to claim that the craftiness of evil does not influence us!  What are we, as believers, defending when we argue with one another about celebrating pagan holidays and singing along to catchy tunes with worldly views ?  Who are we trying to impress, or please by supporting that which is blasphemous to our Lord?? I am not writing this from the position of being holier than thou, by any means.  I only want to raise the questions so that you will be able to really think about what your answer would be.  I, too, am easily sucked into the mindless act of allowing garbage to entertain me... to move me and influence me.  But I am more clearly seeing how it is a tool the enemy uses, not only to manipulate and brainwash, but to distract us who desire to be most effectively used by God! 

I am sorry if this is all seeming judgmental and hypocritical of me.  However, that doesn't make it any less true!  I only want us to become as effective as we are meant to be!  I want to encourage all who proclaim Jesus as Lord to rise up and walk in our God given authority and face the enemy with the confidence in truth that Satan has already been defeated!! Truly, brothers and sisters, what have we to lose by rising up against the enemy??  Now, consider what we have to lose by remaining with our heads in the sand.

You see, I don't need to answer any of these questions for you.  Does it not impact you more by coming to the realization on your own? I know Holy Spirit can move you more than I ever could!  I'm not trying to fill that roll!  I only share the very things I ponder myself.  And I, as one who still battles the desires of my flesh, reach out in hopes to find courage and accountability in those who are like-minded and desire to be obedient to the calling on their life.  There is strength in numbers, my friends!  You have no need to fear the enemy when you know who your Papa is!! Come into the realization that by us walking in our true identity in Christ causes the enemy to tremble in fear! All that the enemy can gain from us, ultimately, is our shell... our flesh.  And, as he makes every effort to take that, he is pushing us into eternity with our heavenly Father!

So, in closing, I encourage you all to put on the full armor of God!  Submerge yourselves and loved ones in the Word of God! Prepare for the inevitable! Seek God as one!  Be bold! Be fearless! Be courageous! And love those whom God loves! Spread His love like a wildfire! Leaders, don't leave your posts! You have a flock to protect! And remember, brothers and sisters, we have the last laugh!!

Much love,

~ Rach
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An important lesson... to learn and to teach!

8/25/2015

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I have learned that you are never too old for Sunday school lessons.  No matter the age group.  If you're teaching or sitting in a Sunday school class with your child, go in ready to receive! 

As my children were younger they enjoyed watching Veggie Tales.  I have felt conviction while watching those with my children.  I think the reason why is because I am always going to be a child of God, and He is always going to teach me through whatever He so chooses.

I had the privilege to teach 8 - 11 year olds this last Sunday!  I knew exactly what I wanted to teach on immediately when I had signed up for it.  I desperately want children to know their value in Christ!  I want them to know that they are unique and have gifts which God had put inside them from the very beginning!  Everybody has a purpose, and we aren't to want to be like everyone else.  What I had done for them was create a TRUTH journal.  I was careful to make them each unique in design. I gave them a red pen to write in it.  Why red?  Because, in the Bible, whenever Jesus spoke, it was in red.  This journal is going to be filled with the TRUTH God speaks, and has spoken, of who we are!  I won't go into the details of the full lesson, unless you ask me to. :)
However, I want to share with you just why this topic stirs such passion within me.

When I was around the age of 8, I struggled to find my identity.  I struggled to see my value.  Being the youngest of four, I constantly compared myself to everyone.  The things that are irritating to people, the things that impress people.  I observed.  Of course, I can only share my perspective.  My siblings will tell you otherwise, I'm sure.
 My sister, the oldest, is the one that set the bar high when it came to intellect and responsibility.  I knew I could never reach that.  I couldn't even keep my room clean!... I still can't!  But that's a whole other story.  I also couldn't read and study and retain so much information.  The very thought of it all overwhelmed me!
Take note: I had formed the thought that I would never measure up and be taken seriously because I lacked her abilities.
Moving on to my oldest brother... what I noticed about him was that he was so independent.  He seemed to not really be bothered by what other people thought of him.  Sure, he went through difficult phases, but he really protected me from seeing most of those phases.  He was, and still is, a generous brother to me.  I always felt safe with him.  I don't ever remember fighting with him.  Yet, he did get in trouble a lot.  So, seeing him,  I felt that being yourself is harder and less acceptable.  Unless you are a piece of perfection. 
Please, keep in mind that these are all perceptions as a child.  Of course, now, I can understand the growing process is not an easy one and correction and discipline are a must!  But, as a child, I did not have that reasoning. And, therefore, my mind and behavior was molded by my experiences and observations.
Now, my other brother, closest to me in age... to him I was that bratty little sister.  To me, he was a vicious instigator.  He would constantly do things to upset me.  And, when I'd cry, he'd laugh at me.  I thought he was pure evil!  He would tell me I was adopted.  I rarely remember getting along with him, as kids.  We are fine, now.  And I absolutely love him!  Back in the day, though, it was tough.  I felt bullied.  I felt abused.  Now, take note of this: The negative attention tends to outweigh the positive.  We are more inclined to believe the bad things about us  rather then the good.

I won't go on to describe every relationship I've ever had and how it affected me. I know, you may be surprised by that. ;)

I have been trying to unlearn twisted views I have carried with me since childhood.  I believed so many lies about myself and where my value lies.  I became drawn to unhealthy relationships because of it.  I went through horrible depression.  And so much more! 

Who's really to blame?  Our battle is not with flesh and blood.  The easiest way for the enemy to attack us is through our thoughts.  It's really that simple.

So, it's hard to teach on something that hasn't had a major effect on you personally.  I want to do all I can to pull the vale from these precious children's eyes!  I want to not only expose the enemy and his tactics, but I want to help equip them and stand by them in battle against the enemy!  How do you battle lies?  With truth! 

We must edify one another in Christ!  Children have specific functions in the body of Christ, too.  And they are even more of a threat than us adults, I believe!  Imagine if we all, young and old, walked in the authority of Christ!  It's time!  And our children learn by example.  Let us be imitators of Crist so that we teach our children to do so as well.  If you aren't pouring into your child truth and love, you better believe someone else is pouring in the garbage and lies.  I understand we fail as parents everyday.  I know I do.  But it's never a wrong moment to turn it around and love on your child!  It may take a handful of pride pills to swallow, but it will make for a healthier relationship - I promise!

I challenge you, today, to go out of your way to love someone you have been struggling with recently.  Because love conquers all!

Much love!
~ Rach


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You're NOT Crazy, You're a Threat!

8/16/2015

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 As someone who has struggled with "mental disorders" since childhood, I offer a very real perspective on the struggle and treatment of the many blind diagnoses.  I've always been a daydreamer...full of awe and wonder in God's creations and glory. I would look at everything and notice each detail in its intricate design. I was easily distracted from school and systems put in place for a sense of order in which we are to live our lives. I felt, and to this day still feel, everything around me. I not only feel the physical pain others may go through...but I do in fact feel and sense the emotional afflictions others go through, as well. I guess you would say I have a great deal of empathy. For years, I couldn't understand it. I'm far from being an introvert, yet, because of my transparency and relational personality, people weren't always drawn to me. Rather, they were easily offended by me or simply found me strange and an outcast. My social life amongst peers in school was awkward and virtually non-existent.     I grew up in church. My dad was a pastor. My parents provided a good, strong foundation for us. They were intentional about making God a natural topic and foundation of our everyday lives. I've always believed in God. I've always believed and had faith in the Holy trinity. I never questioned it simply because it's difficult to explain. I just knew certain, inexplainable things about God and the Word of God were true because I trusted God always and was blessed with the gift of faith.     However, life is never perfect or easy, especially when you don't exactly fall into the category of "normalcy". There are always going to be traumatic life events that trigger insecurities in us. Events that change the way we perceive others. Events that unlock doors in our minds that we wish would remain locked. I tell you this, because I believe this whole heartedly, those of us who are more apt to feel deeply, or think creatively, and appreciate intricate detail in everything ...I believe we are targeted. We are a huge threat to the enemy, Satan. Why?  Because we are people of passion. Passionate people move, influence, and can inspire so many. The enemy's goal is to steal, kill, and destroy ( John 10:10. )Will he not attack those who pose the largest threat? Do you know who the prince of this world is? Do you know the spiritual battle that is going on around us, whether you choose to acknowledge it or ignore it? It's a battle for our souls.     Clearly, I write this as a believer to believers. Those lost in darkness will not understand this. Or, perhaps this will in fact shed light on them and cause them to seek after truth, which is in Christ. Satan has been after me since I was small. He weaseled his way into my mind and unlocked the doors of great insecurities, and doubt, and fear. The only sure way to fight against the lies that are whispering ,or yelling in our minds is by speaking truth and rebuking the enemy, in the name of Jesus. We,as believers, need to be spiritually minded. And we need to teach our children the realities of spiritual warfare.
Medications are not the answer in fighting the spiritual realm, rather it is a tool of manipulation of controlling and programming our minds. Why is it that psychotropic drugs are so readily available? They are practically given to us. Yet the things that have to do with our nutrition and natural remedies are so hard to attain because of expense and lack of awareness. Why is health not pushed? It's because the forces that rule this world are that of darkness (
Ephesians 6: 12.) We live in a fallen world.   I have been one who turned to medications to "help" me manage better. Also, for the sake of my family. I had prayed for God to heal me. I felt like I was losing my mind! Now, take into account these things... I had my first child at the age of 19. I got married 2 weeks after. Between the ages of 20 and 24 I had 3 more children.  So, I had 4 children pretty much back to back. I was a stay at home mom for 8 1/2 years. I was in a stressful marriage, due to our lack of maturity and huge responsibilities. In my 9 years of marriage there had been far more downs than ups. We never had time for each other, alone. I had high expectations of who he should have been as a spiritual leader, without considering the issues he'd have to address personally to even be able to lead. He also had high expectations of me and how I should be as a housewife...plus, I was emotionally up and down. I was "crazy" and paranoid. I did have trust issues, as did he. The point I'm trying to make here is that our environment has a lot to do with our health. It's hard to be positive when surrounded with negativity. It's hard to breathe when you’re suffocated by needy children and a distant husband with unreachable expectations. My focus was on myself. My husband didn't love me how I needed and wanted to be loved. I isolated myself from others out of fear of offending them or hurting them. I even had convinced myself that I truly would be doing my family, my children a favor if I'd ended my own life, because I felt out of control. I kept hurting the people I loved most. These feelings were STRONGEST while I was taking my medications. A certain medication called Artane was given to me to eliminate the side effects of another medication I was on.  I had several side effects from each medication I was on, that just gave me more crazy symptoms, but let’s just focus on one. (I was on a total of 4 different medications for depression, bipolar II disorder, anxiety, OCD…with a few changes in different medications ). I took it because my other medication made my limbs painfully restless.  However, this medication made me feel like I was definitely on a hard drug. I got cotton mouth and my body had this numb feeling. One particular day I was feeling so depressed and having a panic attack , due to guilt and shame in my own life, that I took that and washed it down with a beer, purposely! It worked quick...before I knew it family and pastors and an ambulance and cops were all at my house and I had no recollection of how it all happened. I had sent out texts to some friends and family that were obviously alerting! Yet, I don't know the content of those texts.  I only share that because it shows me that at some point we really don't have control of ourselves...so, who is controlling us? I do believe that the combination of my life stresses with the medications, and alcohol in this case, really was me giving up control. That's a scary place to be at.   I don't know, maybe I got a bit too extreme here....but maybe it just got real for some of you. If I'm reaching out to even one person who can relate, and it changes their perspective and turns them to Jesus, then mission accomplished! Don't find yourselves deceived by relating to those commercials trying to get you to think a medication is going to make life bright and sunny all of a sudden ( with only a million horrible side effects.)     I am now, unfortunately divorced, yet fortunately out of an environment that was killing me. God has provided me with an amazing job helping people understand the importance of proper nutrition, physical activity, and faith. I have been off medications of all pharmaceutical sorts for over 2 years now, and I feel mentally healthier than ever. The knowledge I have gained through my job has truly saved me. I know specifically the foods to stay away from that trigger all those horrible feelings. I know the importance of exercise, and how it is healing to the mind. And I am so aware of my spiritual surroundings. I praise God that it's where I'm weakest that His power is made perfect and His glory shines brightest (2 Corinthians 12: 9-10.) All glory be to God! He brought me through it all. He never left me, as He promised ( Deuteronomy 31:6.)   Praise God, there is good news to be shared to all who will hear! It’s God's will that not one shall perish but have everlasting life (John 3:16.) We are created in the image of the the Holy trinity.   Gen 1:26-27 And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth. So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.   I just want to point out that the trinity is pointed out here. And that they are all One, not separate entities.   So, though I may have trailed off my original topic here, I believe it was brought to the core it was meant to be. I believe that this was divinely inspired by the Holy Spirit, who is in me. I usually have a difficult time articulating things because my mind usually is faster than my words. I am amazed how much better I am at writing than speaking.   In closing, I encourage all who struggle with the labels put to your natural tendencies (NOT disorders), to bring glory to God, and praise His name for blessing you with a sensitive spirit, KNOWING that was part of your unique design. God makes no mistakes. A dear sister so sweetly pointed out to me, we are not cursed by our earthly blood line, as God's children we are part of His blood line! Praise God! So spread the Good News.
 
Much love,
 
~Rach 
 





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    Author:         Rachel

    Welcome! I'm just a single mommy determined to turn my dreams into a reality for the people I adore! I'm passionate in every way. There's never a dull moment in any day, and I wouldn't have it any other way!...Haha... I KNOW some of you rapped that! See I do things like that ALL the time, unintentionally... Please, enjoy your read... I promise to have you laughing, crying, and inspired !
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