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11/20/2016

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Recently, I was having a discussion with the Lord.  I just started talking to Him about my insecurities that I so badly want to overcome.  I spent a good 2 hours talking, worshiping, just being with Him.  I began singing that He would give me His eyes to see myself as He does.  To give me His ears to hear how He hears me.  To give me His heart for me so that I can love myself as He does.  It was then that I realized... we pray to see everyone else through His eyes and to love others as He does, but we tend to bypass the necessity of KNOWING our value to Him!

All my life, growing up in the church, I have taken on the mindset of the religious leaders who so humbly point out that " We are but dust" ! That " We are nothing"..without Him.  That "Our righteousness is as filthy rags".  From the pulpit it is often pointed out to us that " God doesn't need us".  

Right?  I mean, am I the only one who has heard these things?  Am I the only one who has believed this with a false humility??

I'm 31 years old now and have certainly come a long way in my understanding of my (God's) Papa Love's heart for us.  But I must say, it's because Holy Spirit has taught me, not man. I understand,now, the context in which they were speaking.... sometimes.  But, to me, a pastor pointing those things out doesn't show the Father's Heart towards us.  It's almost like, through their personal struggle with pride, they overcompensate by making sure everyone checks their heart and "humbles" themselves before the Lord. Even if we aren't struggling with pride, but joyfully walking with Him.

I'm very visual.  When I see a pastor leading the church in an almost shaming way, but stamping it with humility, I see God hovering over us, with our heads bowed down, and His nose turned up to us.

That's Not True!!!

That mindset keeps the church, body of Christ, sick and broken.  Not whole.  And how can we ever expect the lost to want to be part of that?  If you want to heal and be a vessel for God to express His love to the world, you're first going to have to see yourself as He does and stop identifying yourself with your sin!

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​We were created in the image of God!
IN CHRIST...
We are Heirs with Christ! We are the apple of His Eye!  We are His Beloved!  He calls us friend!  We are more precious that rubies!  We are Redeemed!  We were given dominion!  All that is His is ours!  We were created purposefully! And on and on and on...!

That is how significant YOU are to HIM!  You living in your fullest potential in which He created you for is necessary for His Love to be expressed to this world and for the church, His body, to function as it ought to!

I began to have a revelation.  He compared the physical body to the Church.
Christ is the Head, of course.  He began to show me that when we aren't careful to feed ourselves nutritiously, then we naturally throw off certain functions of the body.  Either parts overcompensate or shut down completely.  And if an organ, for example, isn't able to function properly, neither is the rest of the body.  It may take time to notice the negative effects throughout the rest of the body, but if it continues to be ignored then ailment will begin to take over.... and likely even death.  
I feel the need to point out that food isn't the only factor.  God SPOKE everything into existence.  Which means, at the very beginning of everything is frequency.  It's actually the frequency that affects us.  That said, our words affect the body.  Even our thoughts.  You can really make a list of things and you will be fascinated by all that affects your physical body!  Of course, I can really go into this on a deeper level, but I'd rather encourage you to ask Holy Spirit to take you on that journey of revelation.

How does this mirror the church? The body of Christ.  We are the church.  We make up the body of Christ.  Can we all agree on that truth?
We need to start encouraging others within the body to optimally function in their true identity!  We need to put aside our opinions, which aren't confirmed through Christ, and appreciate everyone's unique abilities!  Let's not have all who make up the " Ears" only stay with their own kind.  I mean, it's an example.  Just because an Ear doesn't understand a foot, that doesn't mean the foot is operating wrong and needs to be corrected.  What good is it, anyway, if an Ear hears direction, but has no foot to walk it out? (God, I hope my readers understand my thought process....)  

Let me wrap this up and give you a starting point of discovering a new perspective on this matter.  When you find yourself talking with a fellow believer,  ask God to reveal to you their function in the Body so that you can edify them to optimal health!  Whether or not you understand their process.  Because, honestly, you NEED them to be who they are called to be so that YOU function optimally! We aren't individual bodies, unaffected by other believers.  Even the believer living across the world, whom you may not even know, affects the Body!  So PRAY for the Church! And pray for revelation and strategy!

Guys, this right here is life as we should know it! If you want to see the Church whole, detox yourself and "resonate" as you were created to!

I'm truly wanting to know, what part of the physical body describes your function in the church? Ask God and leave me a comment below!  I KNOW that I am part of the "nervous system", so to speak.  I look forward to hearing from you!!

Much Love,
​Rachel Gray
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Love's Transformation of a Cry

11/9/2016

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  (Began writing this on 11/09/16... watch the transformation as you read into the "continued" date! )

During one of my rants this morning to the Lord, I learned quite a bit!  It's funny, actually... Hey all you men out there, sometimes a woman just needs to talk things out in order to process.  We soon know when we are overreacting and you don't even have to say a thing!  Just be sweet like Jesus, ok?

I was talking to the Lord about my frustrations with my deep desire for a marriage relationship yet, I'm of a mind that no man is trustworthy.  Clearly those two don't go together.  And please hear me, I don't want to agree with those thoughts.  It's really all I have personal experience with.  And this doesn't even necessarily reflect on individual relationships I've been in.  It's really my mindset that has attracted men like that into my life.  Maybe my expectation of men to prove themselves dishonest is actually what inspired it to ring true.  You know what I mean?  The law of attraction is a real thing guys.  And it's not some New Age thing you've gotta be scared of.  But I'll get into that in a bit.  I like to give my readers a clear background before going into the issue at hand.  In a nutshell, my first encounter with desire from a male was at the early age of 5.  This, I know, is actually a more common story than you'd think.  Sad, but true.  I was sexually abused a handful of times in my young years.  I kept that hidden for quite some years, though.  However, it shaped my view of men AND my self-worth.  Because of those unfortunate traumatic events in my life,  I felt that lust was all I had to offer a man.  I believed it's all they ultimately wanted.  Any man that wasn't crude from the beginning and expressed interest in me was " a liar".  I was uncomfortable around "good" men.  I battled over the issue within myself.  Either I was unworthy of being with a good man, or I ultimately trusted them less than the obvious lust-driven men. 
That was a big nutshell, I've noticed.

Back to what I am making a point of.  I decided to acknowledge that my spirit has the deep desire for marriage.  My person, however, doesn't trust even the best man that walks this earth...

( Continued on 8/08/17, almost 9 months later! )

Let me just start by giving God the glory and praising His name for His faithfulness and unfailing love!  I randomly clicked on this untitled draft of mine and, to my amazement, was reading part of my testimony I was just going over in my head over the past two days! It's a testimony in progress, but aren't all?

Shortly after I brought the above issue to the Lord, things began to shift drastically!  God began working out this desire of my heart, while addressing the issue at the same time.  By the end of November of last year I found myself faced with an opportunity that took me by surprise.  You see, at the time I had recently redeveloped a friendship with an ex I hadn't spoken with in exactly a year from breaking up.  I had just started going to a school at our church and he was a second year there.  He was one of the "good" guys I had dated and ended up breaking up with, ultimately out of fear and wounds from my past. From the outside looking in, there was no good reason at all to have ended our relationship then. ( Honestly, even before we began dating God had revealed him as an answered prayer to me and my children) . But I was still of a mind that I will not wait to be fooled, and I will leave before I get left.

This school I started going to was a School of Transformation.  It was designed to help the students discover their identity in Christ and to begin living out of that truth.  Healing is inevitable... and painful.  But, like anything with God, if you say " Yes" to His leading He will walk you through it all the way.  School began in August and I saw my ex 3 times a week and didn't begin speaking with him until October, really.  A lot of healing had already begun.  However, I was still stubbornly keeping a wall up, like I still had something to prove to myself.  I didn't see him as ever becoming more than a friend from this point on.  I'd frequently make comments about it to him, jokingly. Rude and immature, I know, but it was a defense mechanism .  

Fast forward to late November.  We had coffee and talked for a while. And that's when it began, for me.  I don't even think he was aware.  I don't even know if he was interested in being more than friends.  In fact, I don't think he even allowed himself to consider it.  You see, I was talking to him for a good 20 minutes about my life's drama and he just listened the entire time.  Then he responded to everything with such genuine concern and wise advice.  I was shocked, really.  I mean, I would have expected him to tune me out.  I wouldn't have even blamed him!  Then, God got my attention.  Holy Spirit challenged me to observe my feelings throughout that evening in my interaction with him.  I felt peace, and safety, and in a moment I had realized that he is the first man I knew I could completely trust!  The following week I couldn't stop thinking about him and how I felt.  I began a dialogue with the Lord, asking Him if His hand is on this relationship.  He assured me it was. So then I asked, " so, should I pursue it?" His response to me revealed an aspect of God I never really processed before. He said to me," Do you desire to? My desire if for your desire, too."  I have a choice, I realized.  In a different way than how I used to think.  I always knew we have freewill.  But I also thought that I was at risk of passing up the right choice for a wrong choice, based on my desires. As though my desires innately conflicted with right choices, except for the rare exceptions.  How did I begin even thinking that? I didn't realize I thought that way until I was challenged with the truth.  Anyway, through that I was challenged to commit to my desire before stepping into a relationship.  I felt such a freedom in knowing that I was choosing this man out of my freewill and desire, and not just because I felt it was God's will and I had to.  God would have blessed me regardless.  But it's the best feeling knowing you're partnering with Him in your destiny with anticipation and  a willingness!  

So, a lot has happened since then.  He agreed to give it another shot and, 9 months later, we are only a few short months away from our wedding date!! He is a miracle man to this family!  He treats my kids as his own and they love him!  He has so much patience and grace in living in the chaos of our lives and dealing with an ex that refuses peace.  He's a protector, a leader, a man after God's own heart. And he is my answer to so many prayers, in such great detail! 

Yes, I still have a lot of healing to go through.  I still need my mindset to be transformed concerning men and trust. Which actually reveals that I still haven't fully accepted my true identity in Christ.  But it's a process.  I know, I too have grown to hate hearing the word " process" because it seems like it takes forever, right?!  Well, it actually does, until we are no longer in this world.  We are always going from glory to glory, always transforming until we are fully out of our flesh and in our eternal bodies.  So, we should just accept that process is good and promising!

As I close this article, I want to encourage you to constantly bring the desires of your heart before the Lord.  Even if you feel undeserving of receiving great desires, share them with Him.  His greatest desire is to be in relationship with you, where you know you can ask anything of Him and trust Him to give you those desires, so long as they don't harm you.  That's the thing about God, He is ONLY good!  He would never give you your desire if it would harm you.  That's a huge deal!  That knowledge of His goodness is a weapon in itself!  For example, when I begin to be afraid that I'm going to get the rug pulled out from underneath me in my relationship, I remind myself that God would not have orchestrated such a thing.  And God reminds me,too, through the comfort of His Holy Spirit!  If you are faithful to bring things before the Lord regularly, seeking Him and His will first, you won't be led astray because He says He will direct your path! It takes discipline to remain active in your relationship with Jesus, as it does for any relationship.  He's literally always there, wanting to be invited and talked to. And He wants to relax with you, laugh with you, and cry with you. Grasp the reality of His nearness and lean into it.  Never give up!  It's all going to be worth it!!

Much Love,
Rach

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May 16th, 2016

5/16/2016

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To scribe words of Truth and Wisdom

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May 16th, 2016

5/16/2016

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For when fear consumes my mind, my mind rises courageously!

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Golden Arrow

5/16/2016

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His arrows shall pierce through the atmosphere and His Spirit shall spill over and through all creation!

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The Key That Unlocked My Understanding!

4/8/2016

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I don't know WHY it has taken me so long to finally write about this!?

First, I will start by declaring this:

 May all I state herein fall on deaf ears if it NOT be inspired by the very heart of God and His Holy Spirit.  May all that IS truth and of holy wisdom and insight, straight from the heart of God, take root in the hearts of those seeking truth, deeper relationship with our Creator, and guidance in how to be a powerful son/ daughter in this world!



Three years ago I finally woke from a deep sleep.  For as long as I can remember I not only saw myself as the target of the enemy's prime choice of torment, but I had even chosen to believe I deserved it. Anything anyone did or said to me that was hurtful or hateful, I believed that I must have deserved it.  I even began verbally repeating the lies to myself in the mirror.  At the time I believed them to be truths. Not just as a child, but well into adulthood.  I received everything bad as justified punishment for things unknown, at first.  However, I was sure to be the first to verbally shame myself as soon as I knowingly did things wrong.  Outwardly, I tried to be joyful and whimsical, as I naturally was.  Eventually, though, My inward decay and utter pain began to completely change my outward appearance.  My eyes became empty and glossed over.  My smile became forced. My body was becoming a lifeless shell.  I had so many walls built up and forces of defense set up all around me.  I was enslaved by my own free will!   

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Now, this may or may not sound believable to you... I absolutely loved and trusted God from an early age!  I did believe that, one day, He will rescue me from this.  That ALL of this torment was going to be used for good.  I really remember thinking that at age 10! I knew verses that revealed His promises and I never wavered in faith. Truly!

What I DIDN'T know was this...

I didn't know I had a choice to NOT receive the lies!  I didn't know the true power of MY words!  I didn't know my true, unique value!  I knew what the bible said, yes.  I just didn't know the true power behind the scriptures.  I guess I got in the habit of looking at it more like a history book with powerful stories that had happened and encouraging words.  I didn't know my authority I had over the enemy.  I didn't know that I could claim things, good things, for myself!  I didn't have the slightest concept of life and death being in the power of my tongue! 

This lack of understanding was not due to a lack of teaching from my parents and pastors.  I had allowed the enemy to cloud my vision from an early age, which made it difficult for me to comprehend simple truths.

Oh! How good God is!  He has unlocked truths within me and flooded me with a deep knowledge and understanding!  I believe people have different "missing links", so to speak.  For me it was the understanding of Quantum Physics!  Everything is energy!
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This is how God has caused everything bad in my life to turn around for my good!
As I was going through my divorce, I was in search of a job.  I had been a stay-at-home mom for 8 1/2 years!  My highest level of education would be categorized as " Some College", but it was on the low end of "Some" considering I became pregnant with my first child my senior year of High School. And married shortly out of High School. 
I had always said that I wouldn't get a job I didn't love.  That was even more important to me than what it paid.  I believed that if I loved my job I'd do it well.  And I knew that that would please God and He is my ultimate provider!  At first I decided to use my God-given talents to earn what I could until I found a stable job.  I began selling baked goods at a coffee shop!  I was asked to write and direct skits at my church for VBS! No, that wasn't a paying job, of course!  But it was a blessing to have my gifts acknowledged and drawn out of me!  Through that experience I came to know my current boss and dearly trusted friend!  He worked at a health and wellness clinic where his dad was the Doctor.  I asked if they were hiring and he said that they are praying for the right person to come.  Long story short, (well, of this particular story) I am that person!  I am drawing near to my 3 year anniversary of employment at our clinic!  I have gained so much knowledge and confidence in these past few years that gives my entire past so much purpose!
Our main source of healing at our clinic is ENERGY!  The true understanding of this key factor in life is simultaneously mind blowing and yet so simple!!   
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Everything is truly energy!  The very breath you breathe in and out holds frequency!  Each individual cell in your body has a specific frequency!  Your thoughts, your words, all of you! The paint you paint your baby's walls with has a specific energy to it that will either provide a happy, gloomy, comforting, or over stimulating energy within that room.  To which that child will react according to it's own energy. 
Is that in itself not fascinating?!  I get to test energy for a living!  My specific job is QRA ( Quantum Reflex Analysis )
The Doctor sends the patients to me to have herbal supplements tested and specific dosages according to the individuals needs.  Because, let's be honest here, nobody has the same body chemistry.  Therefore, the general dosages on the bottles will not provide optimal benefits!
How do I test?  I first mentally " stress tap" individual systems of the body, for example " Digestion".  With my hands, thumbs pointing towards each other, on the sitting patient's knees, I slightly bring the knees together as I make my statements to the body. I will either make a True or False statement.  The way the body responds is by a Reflex Response that takes place in the hip!  I will know if my statement, or the specific supplement in the patient's bio field, " stresses " the body if my thumbs do not line up to one another evenly.  The leg will literally pull up slightly! I do not control or manipulate this.  In fact, I cannot. I can only word things differently. I even do surrogate testing and test someone in a different State! I have done this successfully quite a few times.  I simply just need to know a few things about the person's health/situation.  I know, it may seem hard to comprehend.  But think about it like this...  If we can intercede for people all over the world, without even knowing them, and hear changes happening according to our prayers, why wouldn't this be possible? Our prayers are energy!  This testing, by the way, goes beyond testing nutrition.  We can, and do, test emotional health with this same technique.  And this is only one of several techniques!  I self-test darn near everything with a simple flick of the fingers.  And, what's taking it even a step farther is testing for multiple energy sources, seen and unseen!  Even spiritually speaking.  People, this is NOT a tool created by the enemy!  He is not a creator, only a contortionist of sorts.  Yes, this knowledge can be used for destruction.  Just as our words can.  Just as our physical actions can.  Just as music can.  Just as religion can.  And on and on indefinitely! 
Don't be quick to shut this out... This knowledge is a vital key to fully walking in your God-given authority, destiny, and abundant life!  He is the beginning and end!  All scripture is God-breathed!  He SPOKE the world, the UNIVERSE, into existence!  Please, don't believe the lies about super spirituality being New Age and witchcraft.  God began it all!  And He is good, ONLY GOOD!  Satan was kicked out because he wanted to be greater than his Creator!  He is a contortionist of truth! He is a master manipulator!  He is the father of lies!  Don't let him prevent you from using the power that is  unattainable to him! 
Everything Jesus did when He walked this earth until He ascended into heaven, we will do also!  And even MORE!  I'm not saying we are gods, just to be clear.  I don't lean on that side of a common belief system.  I'm simply stating the fact that we are invited to partner with our Creator in walking in our true identity, all he has meant for us!

I am so moved with gratitude that He has brought me to where I am now, in every aspect!  I mean, I think the greatest understanding I now have is that I can choose to walk in the Kingdom of heaven right here on earth right now!  And I can use everything that is in the Kingdom of Heaven to carry out His will on this earth!  I can refuse to receive the lies!  I can finally comprehend how SPEAKING TRUTH CANCELS OUT THE LIES!  I understand how nearly every disease process is caused by stress.  whether it be generational or self inflicted!  I understand that by me rejecting my true identity in Christ for decades has resulted in becoming Auto Immune!  And I understand that EVERY disease process can be reversed by ENERGY!  No man made energy, in pill form or equipment can match our God-given energy!

I could go on and on for an eternity because there is truly no end to this!
This is what excites me!  This is how I can FINALLY comprehend the Word of God and seek more and more wisdom to KNOW Him more intimately!
The choices I face each day are not determined by each moment.  Rather, by whether I am going to walk in the Kingdom of Heaven, or in the covering of the lies of the enemy.  We tend to over complicate and break down each moment of our day as though there is a schedule to which we switch tasks.  No.  Live your lives in Kingdom mindset!  His timing is perfect! And if we seek His will, He will direct our paths! And do everything as unto the Lord!  The way we do our jobs. Raise our children.  Treat our relationships.  Take care of our homes.  Take care of our cities.  Take care of people we don't know.  The effort we put into our homework and our bodies.  The way we cook our meals.  The quality of food we feed people. EVERYTHING!  You CAN have it all, because, as a child of the Most High, you already have it at all! 
Truly, live KNOWING that!  Your bank account may look as though you can only afford to buy yourself and your family cheap, unhealthy food.  But, I promise you, if you begin shopping with the mindset that unhealthy food is NOT an option for your family, your bodies will not be left wanting!  I can promise this because He gives only good gifts!  And it is an action of you trusting Him.  Once you develop this mindset, you will begin to cut out a lot of things that may have been false priority. 

Yes, there will be days when your old mindset tries to take up residence again.  Don't beat yourself up over it.  It's NEVER TOO LATE to change to your Kingdom Mindset!  After all, you have become satan's worst nightmare! You know better now!

Be strong. Be courageous. Be you!

Much Love,
~ Rachel Gray  
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My Daughter, Get Ready!

4/3/2016

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  I bless you, My Joy! 
 I'm pouring out upon you to no end!  Continue to trust Me and walk in wonder! 
 You are seen, therefore I AM seen. 
My spirit lays thick upon you.  You are Safe... Powerful... AWE!  You will attract many because you wear My Love so beautifully!  Just walk as I lead, and trust that where I lead I will also provide. 
You are in Me now, completely.  Trust yourself, therefore.  Your concept of time is conforming to My concept of time.  Do not be afraid of this. Trust.  You will run as I lead - not walk.  Speedily, my dear daughter.  Full of grace.  I Love that you do not hesitate!  You know My voice and are constantly listening. 


 Oh!  How sweet a bond is of the Father with His daughter!  The Creator with His creation! 


 
Beauty evermore still awaits.  You are only foot-deep in My waters... Get ready, sweet one!  I will take you all the way in!  You will experience things nobody has yet!  Calm yourself right now...  I'm not done.  Peace will come in your home.  Wherever you dwell will become Holy - as this is where I will dwell also.  Enjoy every moment.  It is a gift, My Love!

Eternally Yours,
           Papa Love


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Our Switzerland Missions Trip Fund!

3/8/2016

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Please help our family sow into the kingdom by supporting us through donation and prayer, or possibly even joining us!

https://switzerlandprayertour.givingfuel.com/switzerland-prayer-tour

I pray you will be richly blessed and deeply inspired!

Much Love,
Rachel

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The Only Way to Overcome Fear is to Scale the Mountain!

2/15/2016

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Do you find that you become anxious or fearful when you KNOW you are about to take a step in the right direction?

Is it adrenaline? Is it fear? Is it....intuition?

This topic of conversation has been highlighted to me since the beginning of the new year! Fear keeps creeping in as I actively walk in a new season I undoubtedly know God is calling me into. However, I have noticed that many close to me are also experiencing the physical manifestation of fear - anxiety.  So, I have been inspired to use this topic, which the enemy has actively been using to prevent me from moving forward, to help walk us out of that place we find ourselves "Stuck" in. Obviously, with the help of Holy Spirit!

You may have noticed I have not been so active on here since we came into the year 2016. (I hope you've noticed !) I ended last year on a very high note! I had just had my first Silent Auction where I successfully auctioned off my original art pieces in efforts to raise money for our first Family Missions Trip! Which, by the way, has helped me purchase our passports and tickets to Switzerland!! Praise the Lord!! That was only the beginning of this "Inspired Art" adventure!  What I thought may only provide a means to raise money for missions trips is indeed proving to be in high demand! Hmmm, not sure if that sounds right.  Basically, what I am learning is that God is using this art to inspire His children in a very intimate way, and He has no plans of stopping this movement through me!  I have been asked, by people I have come to know , to do private painting sessions!  What does that look like? You may be wondering.  It's simple, really!  I set up my station and let my music play in the background while you simply read a book or relax.  I am constantly in prayer during my painting.  I don't need to know anything from you in order to paint something specific for you! I ask the Lord to express His Love for you in a deep way.  I am just allowing Him to use me.  Sometimes I won't even have an interpretation for you... because you will just know when you see it! Besides, the same picture will undoubtedly speak something different to anyone else.  But this is a special moment and I would LOVE to see some testimonials in the comments below from anyone who has ,or will, receive one of these paintings! ;)

No, I have not forgotten the topic of this post. Yes, it is necessary for you to understand this little backstory of mine.

God, my Papa Love, has given me clear direction of my call in this life!  He has promised me some BIG things and is bringing them to pass! I mean, I still cannot believe we are going to Switzerland in just a few short months!  He has given me BIG dreams! And He has even been speaking some bold words into my life. Like, very specific things! Concerning Love and marriage and even where I'm going to live! This is " deep territory" He is walking me into.  And, I admit, from the outside I look like a crazy lady sometimes.  I gotta stop caring how I think other people see me as because that's exactly what will cause me to cower into a ball of insecurities and not move forward in His promises!  And THAT is my introduction to addressing FEAR!

I would be foolish to underestimate the craftiness of my enemy!  I am thankful that I have grown a lot in my understanding of my God-given authority I am to walk in!  Otherwise, I would continue to be ruled by the debilitating fear that constantly shoots up like a huge mountain as I walk the straight and narrow! The thing about those mountains on a straight and narrow path is that you naturally cannot see beyond them! You are aware of how far you've walked and all you have already been able to overcome.  Then you are faced with a decision... do you set up camp and just retrace your past steps and remain in what you have come to "know", and allow that mountain to keep you from going beyond?  Or, do you refuse to remain in what you are meant to walk out of and scale that mountain?

My mountain is usually formed by the fear of expectation and even success!  Which really forms an even bigger mountain of responsibility and reliability!  I'm just gonna name it because my enemy already knows my fears and I believe that by being transparent about this I will gain strength! As will you! As I see the good that is produced by my obedience to His leading and my public vulnerability, I begin to see the magnitude of the influence He is allowing me to have on a large scale! And it is daunting!  I mean, really, if I mess up in a big way, suddenly the world will know it and my entire reputation can be destroyed!! Suddenly my circle became bigger! By no means am I putting myself on a "celebrity" status pedestal!  The reality of putting myself out there publicly is just really scary to think about, you know?  People I don't even personally know suddenly really know me!  And some of the people I do know and hold in high esteem don't even have a clue that I exist!  Which, by the way, is not healthy, I know.  What I really need to get over is needing the approval of man!  And I know this!  I am just laying before you the real fears and thoughts I face on a daily basis that are constantly surfacing in efforts to get me to stop sharing! And let me tell you about this fear of success I have!  I didn't even realize that would be a fear until it was actually put into words!  Doesn't everyone want to be successful?? Well, ya, of course!  But to remain successful is a big deal!  All these things, which have not even become tangible yet, stir a great ,breath-taking anxiety within my belly!  But you know what?  All these what ifs are really smoke and mirrors!

Want to know how to combat this tool of your enemy? Do you want to know how to use it against him, for your gain? Here's how...

... Do it anyway! It will not go away as you continue to walk forward.  But you can experience peace during those times.  God has not given us a spirit of fear.  So, we know it's not from Him, which means it's from the enemy.  And why would he try to stop us in our tracks with fear?  Because, unlike us, he does see what's on the other side of that mountain!  He does not want us to go out into all the world and make disciples! He doesn't want us to know our true value!  He doesn't want us to know that we, in Christ, are a force to be reckoned with!  What is his main goal?  To steal kill and destroy US! And why did Jesus come? To give us life more abundantly! Again, fear will pop up constantly, but as you gain more momentum and seek first the Kingdom, you will rise up on wings like eagles and gain new strength and He will provide all that you need and beyond! Yes, I combined a few different paraphrased verses, but it's all true!! The true key is to acknowledge Him in all your ways and He will direct your path! And cast all your cares upon Him for He cares for you!  Do you want peace of mind? Give Him your time and attention.

So, next time I have the privilege of painting in front of the church during worship service, I will enter into His presence and climb that mountain in anticipation! 
If what you do in life is pleasing and acceptable to the Lord, yet causes an anxiety within you, you must bring it before Papa Love and talk it out with Him. Ask for understanding and wisdom.  You will gain it!  Never get too busy with even the good to set aside time with your Papa! He's the only one who can give you the fulfillment you seek.  And, if you are not careful to keep Him first, the good works He once produced through you can become dead and even destructive.  I pray I never boast in anything I do but that I forever sing His praises and boast in His everlasting Glory!

Aahhhhh.... that was refreshing!

Be inspired to keep going!  And let God go as big as He wants with you!

Much Love!
~ Rach


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Ask and You Shall Receive

2/12/2016

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It worked!!

I recently posted about asking for help.  Well, I took my own advice and am so very glad I did!
I technically only asked my parents for help.  Why did I wait so long to ask for help when help was so ready to be given? Now I have a full 24hr day to myself to look forward to every month! Ha! That's a big deal!
A couple days after asking for help with my children, my friend calls me up telling me that she got a sitter for the kids so she and I could go out! FUN! Also, my other sweet friend offered to help me with housework while we just hang out!
I was so blessed! And it wasn't burdensome to them.

I just want to encourage you, again, to take that initial step and ask someone for help.  Then, watch how many other opportunities come your way in doing so!
Don't be ashamed for not being perfect! It's no fun trying to be anyway.  You're still Super Mom or Super Dad!  That won't change. Our kids want us happy.  And, we need to share the load if we want them to have us at our best!

Yay Me! I kept it short! This is me working on not being an overachiever ;)

I'm excited to get back in the groove of things! Keeping you inspired and speaking LIFE!

Much Love,
~ Rach
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